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11 December 2012 @ 09:44 am
I'm posting this for the benefit of anyone who may stumble across my live journal. 
There is fiction here, but my journal is basically a friends only environment.

There are many changes coming to my journal. It is essentially changing to be more personal and less about fanfic, if any.

If you would like to have access to my journal, please send me a friend request. - b.

Many thanks to millionstar for helping with the new layout!
Current Mood: chipperchipper
08 March 2011 @ 10:09 am
Woke up this morning from a really shitty dream. But I found this and my day is so much better now.

How I love this man. *le sigh*
His smile makes things better <333
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
28 August 2009 @ 08:26 pm

This may be treated as a meme if you like...but I'm not going to tag anyone. If you read this it may spark some worthwhile reflection.

There are three pots of this particular kind of cacti in the back yard where I live. I seem to meditate on them in the morning when I have my tea. I didn't even realize that I was drawn to them for many weeks. I would just stare at them, lost in one of many thoughts racing around my head.

Now they are part of my daily routine. I notice what they've done in the last 24 hours, but I hadn't bothered to find out what they're called until tonight.

Here is what I have learned about this plant:

This kind of cacti is rare. It is mostly smooth and as cacti go, seems to be harmless to touch...but watch out, the thorns are close to the body of the plant and can easily be overlooked.

In general it's not a very attractive specimen-- certainly there are worse plants to look at, but when it blooms well...it is quite beautiful.

 It lives on little and in harsh conditions. If it gets cracked or damaged it will survive. If a section gets hacked off, that section doesn't just go deteriorate and decay. It will stay alive and become a whole new plant. 

Several months back, three sections were accidently broken off of the main plant. They lay as though discarded on the railing of the back yard deck. I have watched them, thinking that they would shrivel up and die without water or soil. That maybe they should just be thrown out instead of littering up the place.

Instead they have sprouted, blossomed, and continue to grow.

I've never appreciated cacti in this way before. Oh sure, if I see a flower on one, it might catch my attention...but I've never actually admired a cactus...see  qualities in it that I wish to see in myself.

So if I am or could be any kind of plant I would have to say that I am Cereus fernambucensis.

Current Location: bed
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: the sounds of silence...really.
16 August 2009 @ 07:57 pm

**This was written in my comp book about a year ago. I'd totally forgotten about it--but what I was thinking, I now remember.


then twitch,

flipping the switch
the lightbulb splutters to dark.

follow what light is there
convince yourself that you care,

run after the shadow

that's left.

Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Bach Two and Three Part Inventions / Andras Schiff
13 August 2009 @ 10:35 am

Looks like Chris doesn't want to be left out of the "fun", when Muse tours with U2 ;-p

If you're interested, leave a comment on this post that says "QUESTIONS!" I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better. Update your journal with the answers to the questions. Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

1. If a book was written about your life right now what would it be called?
Slightly cheeky answer: 
Resistance: The Struggle Against Inertia
(sounds like a self help book...haha)

2. What is your favourite holiday?
The pat answer should be Christmas...but the last few years Christmas has left me feeling snarky. Of the last 12 months though I can say that my favorite holiday was Cinco de Mayo. A surprise to me too. =D

3. What's the one thing you wish you could do better?
Pursue my dreams by overcoming my fears.

4. What's the best present you've ever received?

5. (obligatory Muse question) If you could only listen to one Muse song for the rest of your life which one would it be? Hmmm...always tough to choose between Muse songs, let alone all of them.
But, if I could only have one Muse song to keep in my pocket for the rest of my life I would have to say SHINE ACCOUSTIC.
I'm guessing "why?" is implied.
Lyrical content is important--I'll take pensive moodines, over conspiracy--lush music, Matt's voice is gorgeous, RAIN, and the bass arpeggios are oh so much fun to play. This song gives me goosebumps, touches my heart and always makes me smile in spite of everything. :)
Current Mood: calmcalm
07 August 2009 @ 09:12 pm
So, I'm trying to get the hang of Live Journal. Guess I'm going to have to actually post some entries in order for that to happen. 

A lot has been going on in my head, but not much turning into visable results. This is much the story of my life. And at this particular time that's an uncomfortable fact.

Changes are going to happen soon. Sooner than I'm ready for, and not as easily as I would like.

I've been transferring my CD collection onto my iTunes library bit by bit...in preparation to leaving behind the physical disks. Came across my one YES CD...which I probably hadn't listened to in ten years.
And how I have been missing out on this amazing music! Too wrapped up in another band to be even tasting the fruit of others much.
So here are a couple of videos/songs that I've found and re-found.



Which, may inspire me personally...and in the area of writing something for fun as well. Maybe.
Any advice/tips on Live Journal would be appreciated. Let me know if you're interested in reading WIPs too. =D

Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: YES